and my mom hugged me tight and said,
"Daddy went to Heaven."
Oh, he was such a good dad.
I'd make him do the TikToks with me.
They were these little music video things, you know?
Um, how'd they go?
Something like that.
Oh, my God.
Oh, we had this secret handshake.
It was like...
He loved me endlessly, my dad.
The week after the funeral,
we met Dad 2.
You know, one of those Remember Me Bots?
The company went out of business years ago,
but at the time, it was something people did.
Mom didn't like Dad 2.
She pretended to for me and Wilder, but she didn't.
Well, she had to share a bed with him.
Just in case I'd run into the room in the middle of the night.
She didn't want Dad 2, like, powered off in the corner.
She thought it'd traumatize me so...
so she slept in that bed every night with a robot.
I think a lot about that.
What... About what my mom did for us.
我想了很多 关于妈妈 爸爸二号♥...
I think a lot about my mom and Dad 2 and...
and my dad.
My mother died soon after my father.
It was just six months later.
She was out for a run
and one of those driverless cars glitched, took a wrong turn.
I stopped wishing on the moon after that.
Didn't want to be a bother.
I cried for days.
I slept with her clothes because I missed her so much.
I missed her smell.
You know, I still have that sweater she used to wear.
Sometimes, I'll hold close and...
And at night when I'm sad...
No. I know that sounds funny,
but, you know, she'd always rub my back
and it would get the farts out.
Or when I don't feel anything at all.
Over the years, that sweater started to smell more like me,
you know, just because it's been in my drawers,
and now it's... it's like we've met somehow,
her and me as women, you know,
in the fabric, in the fabric of the sweater.
When they found out that we were living with Dad 2,
they made me and Wilder go and live with my grandmother.
Yeah, we moved all the way across the pond.
To Bedford. In England.
Didn't know anyone or anything.
That must have been frightening.
Yeah, yeah, it was.
After we moved to Bedford, things got hard.
You know I'm 71 years old, and it still hurts.
'Cause my bones and my organs were developing then,
so that pain is buried deep.
It's covered over by tissue and calcite and muscle.
And to remove it, you'd have to untwine me altogether.
Did you have any friends in Bedford?
Yes, there was, there was one boy.
One boy who was nice.
他聪明幽默 身材健壮 长得也帅气
He was a popular boy. Smart and funny,
and athletic and handsome.
Oh, Lord, when he'd look at me. Oh!
I just... Oh, melt away like Carvel cake.
When we were 16, everyone in the school
wanted to know who Ming was gonna take to the prom.
All the girls and all the boys were hoping it would be them.
And then one day after school, my grandma says,
"There's a boy at the door,"
and I come to the door...
and there was Ming.
And he put his phone on
and did a little solo flash mob dance.
And it ended with a banner he had in his hands.
"Will you go to the prom with me?"
Yeah. I fainted.
Well, Ming picked me up from the ground,
and when I came to and saw him, I...
I just laughed.
He didn't laugh, he was petrified.
Here he was, the boy of my dreams,
asking me to go to the school dance with him.
That sounds wonderful.
Like a wonderful memory.
I said no, of course.
是的 我对他说了谢谢 但我很忙
Yes, I told him thank you but I was busy.
I told him I had to stay at home
and help my grandmother with something or other.
Why? Why would you say no?
Oh, I knew what the kids would say,
I knew what they would make of him.
I mean, it would have been nice
for them to see me with him.
It would have been nice to be seen.
But he was so nice and...
And so I said no.
And I thanked him and I went back inside.
And I curled up in my mom's sweater,
and I cried.
I mean, honestly, I don't think he even
really wanted to go to the dance with me.
I think he was just a nice boy who felt badly
for a quiet girl who stopped dancing,
Well, I didn't want to be a bother.
So on prom night,
me and granny watched an old movie.
That was "Speed 2."
With that wonderful screen star,
Do you remember her?
She's so funny.
It was 11 at night and Granny snoring on the couch,
and there's a knock on the door,
and I answer it and it's...
standing there in his tuxedo and he looked so handsome.
And he looked so kind.
And he looked a little drunk.