(2003年7月4日)
帮帮忙
Help!
嘿 在这边
Hey, over here!
在这边
Over here!
她在这边
She's in there.
和我说说那个女孩吧
So tell me about the girl.
(几周前)
这...
Well...
其实如果不是因为你 我原本不可能遇见她
actually never would have met her if it weren't for you.
所以可以说这都是你的错
So in a way, this is kind of all your fault.
查理 请和我解释一下
Please enlighten me, Charlie.
如果要我完全说实话 艾尔舒医生
If I'm being a hundred percent totally honest with you here, Dr. Altschul,
这些每周的咨♥询♥并非我最爱的午后活动
these weekly sessions are not exactly my favorite afternoon activity.
(失踪人口)
但去年秋天起 我妈同意我自己开车到城里
But last fall, my mom started to let me drive into the city myself.
也就是说咨♥询♥结束后 我可以自♥由♥地闲逛
Which meant, when we were done here, I was free to wander.
(A1唱片店)
我们是高中同窗
We went to high school together.
也不算同窗 她高我一级
Well, not together. She was a year ahead of me,
已经毕业了 在纽约大学读书
already graduated and started at NYU.
我们不算是朋友 但她就是个令我难忘的人
It's not like we were friends or anything, but she's just hard to forget.
我认识你
I know you.
嗨 请问你是
Hey. How do I know you?
我们应该都上过花山高中
I think we both went to Flower Hill High.
我是说 我仍然在那里读书
Well, I mean I still do.
查尔斯威斯巴格 叫我查理就好
Charles Weisbarger. Charlie's good.
查尔斯 你怎么跑到这了
Well, Charles, what are you doing all the way out here?
我是说...大家跑到这里不都是
I mean I-- What's anyone doing out here just
想要逃离长岛 对吧
getting the hell off Long Island, right?
答案正确
That is the right answer.
所以你有什么毛病
So, what's wrong with you?
要看医生
Your doctor's appointment?
- 不是那种医生 - 是 可不是嘛
- It's not that kind of doctor. - Yeah. No shit.
你一个人来城里 绝对是来看心理医生
You're coming into the city solo. It's got to be a shrink.
你的家长要分开
Are your parents splitting up?
那是我第一次和心理健康 专业人士打交道的原因
That's when I had my first brush with a mental health professional.
我爸去年九月去世了 所以...
My dad died last September. So...
是
Yeah.
你想看我的杂♥志♥吗
Do you wanna see my zine?
什么杂♥志♥
What's a zine?
算是半个自传
It's semi-autobiographical.
(千舞之地)
是我 但又不是我
Me, but not me.
(你好 我叫怪胎)
是我的摄影 插画 音乐评论
My photography, illustrations, music reviews.
我认识这些乐队的人
These guys I know are in this band,
(前事追溯)
我想记录他们的活动 文化
and I'm trying to document their whole scene,
但他们对拍照和隐私很敏感 所以我记录得很隐晦
but they're kind of weird about photos and privacy, so it's thinly veiled.
改了名字以保护当事人
Names changed to protect the guilty.
这好棒啊
This is amazing.
我觉得我们花山的孩子应该互相支持
I think us Flower Hill kids need to stick together.
从今以后 查尔斯 你就是我的课题
From now on, Charles, you're gonna be my project.
每周我从你这里离开后 我们都会见面
We met up every week after I left here with you.
也许你可以说 我真正的教育是从那时开始的
And I guess that's when you could say my real education began.
(迈克布隆伯格 纽约领袖)
(鲁迪朱利安尼 市长)
(靴子)
来吧
Come on.
抱歉
Sorry.
你很帅气
You look good.
在她身边 你实际上是无法感到悲伤的
It was physically impossible to be sad when she was around.
真不错
Really good.
和许多其他很酷的音乐很像 但有点...
It's like a lot of other cool things, but it's kind of like--
好的 我知道 还没完呢
Okay. I know. It's not done yet.
抱歉
Sorry.
《黄铜战术》是前事追溯的唯一专辑
Brass Tactics was the only album Ex Post Facto made
在比利三棍解散乐队前
before Billy Three-Sticks broke up the band,
还没有走红就解散了
before they ever had a chance to get big.
但奇怪的是
And in a weird way,
他们只做了一张专辑这点 让这张专辑更加特别了
the fact that they only made one album makes it even more special.
- 你必须拥有一张 - 不 我没有钱
- You must own it. - No, I don't have any money.
我大概可以在LimeWire上下载吧
I mean, I could probably just download it off LimeWire, right?
不
No.
查尔斯 那会让乐队 失去他们辛苦赚的版税钱
Charles, that would deprive the band of their well-earned royalties.
- 我送你 - 不行
- I'm buying. - No.
行
Yes.
听起来 这是在纽约度过秋天的绝佳方式
That sounds like a wonderful way to spend autumn in New York.
对...是的
Yeah. Yeah, it was.
后来就不是了 虽然我猜那只能怪我
Until it wasn't. Although I guess there's no one to blame for that but me.
我的妈妈 当然了
Well, my mom, obviously.
你不是说你整夜不归家 然后在早上开车回去
Didn't you tell me you stayed out all night and then drove home in the morning,
没穿上衣 因为宿醉呕吐
shirtless and vomiting from a hangover?
好的
Okay.
我的原话不是那样 但是 对
Well-- I didn't exactly say it like that, but yeah, sure.
新年前夕总是会发生些事
I mean, New Year's Eve, shit happens.
你觉得你母亲决定
And do you think your mother's decision
对你关禁闭六个月不合理吗
to ground you for six months was unreasonable?
这和我妈无关
This isn't about my mom.
这是关于小萨 关于我爱她 以及也许她也爱我
This is about Sam and how I love her and that maybe she loves me.
我不知道 我...
And like, I don't know. I--
但我还没想清楚
But before I could even figure all that out,
就无法再见她了 所以...
I wasn't allowed to see her anymore, so--
我的故事就这样中止了
My story just stopped.
查理 这点很鼓舞人 你可以这么清楚地诉说
It's encouraging, Charlie, that you can speak so clearly
你失去的感受
about your sense of loss.
我只希望你愿意
I just wish you would talk about
也这样感性地谈论失去父亲的事
the loss of your father in the same perceptive way.
(1998年 坎托菲茨杰拉德赛)
你觉得有没有可能 通过专注于萨曼莎的事
Do you think it's possible that focusing on Samantha
你借此回避自己关于父亲的感受
is a way of deflecting your feelings about your dad?
- ...飞机的 真的 - 绝对是737
- ...from the plane. Really? - It's definitely a 737.
(永远缅怀)
有人撞上了世界贸易中心 我不知道
Somebody hit the World Trade Center. I don't know.
发生什么了
What the hell is happening?
这样对你来说更容易
It's easier to feel the way you feel
为一个住在几公里外 生机勃勃的年轻女子情绪波动
about a vibrant young woman living a few miles away
而不是去处理 失去你父亲而造成的深重 永久创伤
than it is to process the deep, permanent loss of your father.
...正爆♥炸♥ 这里有人
...exploded right now. We got people all over here
在街道中♥央♥
down in the middle of the street.
又一次撞击 刚撞上另一栋楼
Another hit. It just hit another building.
两架飞机撞上了 曼哈顿下城的世界贸易中心
Two aircraft crashed into the World Trade Center in lower Manhattan.
- 等等... - 发生了爆♥炸♥...
- Wait, wait, wait. - We've got an explosion--
我的天啊 一定是个人
Oh, my God. It must be a person.
- 哪里 - 不 拜托
- Where? - No, please.
- 哪里 - 天啊
- Where? - Oh, my God.
我的天
Good Lord.
没有言语可描述
There are no words.
嘿 查理 是爸爸 出了点事
Hey, Charlie, it's Dad. Something's happened.
你大概已经在新闻上看到了
You've probably seen it on the news.
我觉得我回不了家了
I don't think I'll be coming home.
我只想要你知道我爱你
I just want you to know I love you.
相信我 医生 这一整件事 没有任何“容易”可言
Trust me, doc, there's nothing easy about it.
- 喂 - 嗨 陌生人
- Hello. - Hey, stranger.
你还在关禁闭
You still grounded?
答案最好是“没有” 因为前事追溯
The answer better be "no" because Ex Post Facto,
希望我不在的这段时间 他们仍是你最爱的乐队
who I hope in my absence is still your favorite band,
他们会在4号♥开重聚演唱会
is reuniting for a concert on the Fourth.
没有比利三棍不能算重聚
I mean, it's not really a reunion without Billy Three-Sticks,
他们也改了名 但是会表演所有歌♥曲
and they changed the name, but they're playing all their songs.
一定会很传奇
It's going to be legendary.
如果错过 你一定不会放过自己
You'd basically kill yourself if you missed it.
喂
Hello?
- 查尔斯 在吗 你听到了吗 - 是的...当然
- Hello, Charles? Are you in? - Yes. Yes, of course.
我...对 我不会错过的
I-- Yeah, I wouldn't miss it.
好的 可是